we all have them but it feels like mine are happening every day . Some of you know Scott and I have been trying for the last year to have another one but it is not happening. Maybe it is a good thing due to finances or the way certain family members would react . this one family member once told us one is to many. this member also said not using birth control is like playing russian roulette with your life .
My mom and dad especially my dad knows my family is not complete yet and i know that .
another disappointment lately is scott and his job. he is unhappy in it so he is not happy at home . he comes home plays computer until 1 or 2 in the morning gets up at 6 to get ready for work and leaves at 630 to catch the bus comes home at 630 pm . This is causing stress in our marriage . I used to be so happy to be with him but i think after the 2 year when he got laid off he got into this depression he can't get out of and it is tearing us apart he promises he will stop this computer habit but it keeps going on
I am hoping he gets this job with homeland security he got a notice in the mail to stay fit until they call him to do training since he passes the written part of the test the physical part the drug part the background part all he needs to do is pass a video part.
if he enters the training he will be gone for 4 months . he is worried about leaving me behind but he dosen't have to be i have friends who will take care of me .
Like hilary i needed to vent but i wanted people to know what is going on with me to see if they can help me deal with these negative feelings i am having