I am a cancer survivor
I have 1 eternal companion
1 daughter
3 sons.
my fair share of challenges
I am human

Friday, November 28, 2008

Black Friday

I am so glad that is a day I get to sleep in the only deal i was missing was getting a new vacuum for 28 dollars at walmart it is the bagless kind oh well . I will make do with the one I have that likes to give me problems .
Thankgiving was fun since grandma couldn't come we went to the video store and rented a movie and a wii game ( I love tax time we get one big purchase and that was ours rest of the money goes to pay a big chunk og our debt ) Rainey and Noah helped me make pies we did pumpkin kids tried it they said yuck. Oh well I have a whole pie to my self . Dinner was good I have about 12 lbs turkey to eat how fun

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Thanksgiving

Is going to be not so fun this year for my kids they were looking forward to Grandma coming . Well she is not tomorrow . Scott woke up Monday felling real sick Stayed home from work the last 2 days . I think it might of been food poisoning he was the only one to get violently ill everybody else is fine but why chance it. I still will make the big meal for them and let them help me make a apple pie since I am the only one to eat pumpkin maybe i might go to the church one after all

Monday, November 24, 2008

This is Beautiful you will need a klenex

This is beautiful!


She jumped up as soon as she saw the surgeon come out of the operating room. She said: 'How is my little boy? Is he going to be all right? When can I see him?'
The surgeon said, 'I'm sorry. We did all we could, but your boy didn't make it.'
Sally said, 'Why do little children get cancer? Doesn't God care any more? Where were you, God, when my son needed you?'
The surgeon asked, 'Would you like some time alone with your son? One of the nurses will be out in a few minutes, before he's transported to the university.'
Sally asked the nurse to stay with her while she said good bye to son. She ran her fingers lovingly through his thick red curly hair. 'Would you like a lock of his hair?' the nurse asked. Sally nodded yes. The nurse cut a lock of the boy's hair, put it in a plastic bag and handed it to Sally.
The mother said, 'It was Jimmy's idea to donate his body to the University for Study. He said it might help somebody else. 'I said no at first, but Jimmy said, 'Mom, I won't be using it after I die. Maybe it will help some other little boy spend one more day with his Mom.' She went on, 'My Jimmy had a heart of gold. Always thinking of someone else. Always wanting to help others if he could.'

Sally walked out of Children's Mercy Hospital for the last time, after spending most of the last six months there. She put the bag with Jimmy's belongings on the seat beside her in the car.

The drive home was difficult. It was even harder to enter the empty house. She carried Jimmy's belongings, and the plastic bag with the lock of his hair to her son's room.

She started placing the model cars and other personal things back in his room exactly where he had always kept them. She lay down across his bed and, hugging his pillow, cried herself to sleep.
It was around midnight when Sally awoke. Lying beside her on the bed was a folded letter. The letter said:




'Dear Mom,

I know you're going to miss me; but don't think that I will ever forget you, or stop loving you, just 'cause I'm not around to say 'I Love You'. I will always love you, Mom, even more with each day. Someday we will see each other again. Until then, if you want to adopt a little boy so you won't be so lonely, that's okay with me. He can have my room and old stuff to play with. But, if you decide to get a girl instead, she probably wouldn't like the same things us boys do. You'll have to buy her dolls and stuff girls like, you know.
Don't be sad thinking about me. This really is a neat place. Grandma and Grandpa met me as soon as I got here and showed me around some, but it will take a long time to see everything. The angels are so cool. I love to watch them fly. And, you know what? Jesus doesn't look like any of his pictures. Yet, when I saw Him, I knew it was Him. Jesus himself took me to see GOD! And guess what, Mom? I got to sit on God's knee and talk to Him, like I was somebody important. That's when I told Him that I wanted to write you a letter, to tell you good bye and everything. But I already knew that wasn't allowed. Well, you know what Mom? God handed me some paper and His own personal p en to write you this letter I think Gabriel is the name of the angel who is going to drop this letter off to you. God said for me to give you the answer to one of the questions you asked Him where was He when I needed him?' 'God said He was in the sam e place with me, as when His son Jesus was on the cross. He was right there, as He always is with all His children.
Oh, by the way, Mom, no one else can see what I've written except you.. To everyone else this is just a blank piece of paper. Isn't that cool? I have to give God His pen back now He needs it to write some more names in the Book of Life. Tonight I get to sit at the table with Jesus for supper. I'm sure the food will be great.
Oh, I almost forgot to tell you. I don't hurt anymore the cancer is all gone.. I'm glad because I couldn't stand that pain anymore and God couldn't stand to see me hurt so much, either. That's when He sent The Angel of Mercy to come get me. The Angel said I was a Special Delivery! How about that?
Signed with Love from God, Jesus & Me.

( Let's see Satan stop this one.) Take 60 seconds and repost this, within the hour, you will have caused a multitude of believers to pray to God for each other. Then sit back and feel the Holy Spirit work in your life for doing what you know God loves 'When you're down to nothing, God is up to something.'

Sunday, November 23, 2008

update on mel

People keep asking me how I am doing well here it is
I am felling better then I have I n a long time . I started reading the scriptures They are really speaking to me this time . I am spending more time with my kids Last Saturday Rainey and I went to see Wall-e at the cheap theater it is a cute movie but more for kids 9 and older if you want them to understand the message kids younger then that will get a kick out of the animation and movements of wall-e .
My back is on the mend well turns out it is really my hip that is bugging me don't know what I did but it is mending walking isn't that painful i bought ortho inserts for my shoes to help it out and it is working
Since I have been taking the marriage classes I have learned how to communicate my feeling better and Learned some ways to control my anger and deal with the stress of every day life. Got rid of one stress maker alreadsy spent 2 hours cleaning out my daughters room got rid of clothes that don't fit her broken toys all her old school papers . Now I am working on they boys room and they will be getting bunk beds.
I also joined church choir I admit I don't have a really good voice but I do when I put my heart into it and can pratice at home my kids like when I sing so does my husband It means I am happy.
I also am getting more involved in my piano by helping rainey learn her lessons when she dosen't understand them. Plus my Uncle gave me a big box of music to learn how to play.
That is how I am doing

Friday, November 21, 2008

my good deed for the day

I was dropping my kids off at school for breakfast and there was one girl who was asked if she was coming in she said no my mom doesn't have the .30 for me today so I looked in my wallet and said here is a dollar put it in your account and have a good breakfast I couldn't see her starve until lunch .

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Nicholas is to cute

he found a purse of his sister's it is a cat and he put all his play cars in it he won't go anywhere without it . if you touch it he yells Leave my purse lone mine. he is also getting the terrible 2's late he will be 3 in a month and a few days (dec 26) but I still love him
today on the way home he was singing mary had a little lamb to me

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

friends

I got news today that a friend of mine Named Kim is moving I will really miss this friend we haven't been friends for long but we have become the best of friends good luck in all your adventures

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

OH Christmas Tree

You look so bare and spare I named you the Charlie Brown Tree .
I have my tree up call me crazy . I normally wait until the day after thanksgiving but It was in the attic a place I don't venture I hate small places. Plus here is the thing I have never enjoyed Christmas. I never got what I wanted I always ended up with books or stuff I really couldn't play with one time I wanted a walk man to listen to my music but my sister got it instead of me . She always got what she wanted no matter what.
So I have decided to make it special for my kids they got everything on their list and a few surprises. Thanks grandma and freecycle and great clearance sales.
I let them put up the tree and decorate it how they want . The moment Nicholas gets up he has to turn on the lights I am not allowed to turn them off until he is in bed. Since we moved here I started a cool tradition each year I take them to English gardens and let them pick out one special decoration for the tree or house so that way when they leave home they have a few things for their tree or house. I also give my nephews one. The first year it was my nephew William my sister's oldest he got a Hippopotamus for the tree since his favorite song is I want a Hippopotamus for Christmas. Last year my sister's middle one got a stuffed Polar Bear for the Tree he likes bears this year I am doing it for my brother's child he likes Thomas the Train so i will see if I can't Find a train one
So all of you out there have fun putting up your tree and doing your family's traditions

Saturday, November 15, 2008

Rain is falling all around

on the roof tops on the ground and in my basement it is a watery mess down there I can't keep up I wish we had the funds to fix it let alone have someone come out and quote us
other than that i want and saw Wall-e with Rainey today it is a cute movie

Thursday, November 13, 2008

kids are playing hookie

Scott was taking Noah to karate and the driver's door came open . The latch broke so van is not safe to drive . So I called the kids school and excused them . It has been an adventure . I cleaned Rainey's room went through her clothes have a bag to give away . It looks a lot better now and she is throwing her temper because I won't let her use my markers to color with last time they used them someone decided to color the table and walls and they won't fess up to who did it

Noah is good with his computer game he has been playing
Nicholas took a extra long nap I wish I was able too.
Hope the van repairs don't cost alot or take to long 1 Vechilcle and no money to get a new one. We are paying for the repairs with the check I got from the lady who hit me .

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Don't Stop Believin'

We decided to try this based on Michelle Bjorklund's blog... we did this together.

I. Put your iTunes/Ruckus/Napster/etc on shuffle.
II. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
III. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
IV. Tag 11 friends who might enjoy doing this.
I tag anyone who wants to be creative silly or for fun.


1. IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Danny Elfman - "Carnival From Hell" (Beetlejuice Soundtrack)

2. WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Savage Garden - "Truly Madly Deeply"

3. WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
They Might Be Giants - "Dead" (Flood)

4. HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
The Greg Kihn Band - "Jeopardy"

5. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
The Beatles - "Nobody's Child"

6. WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Anime Soundtrack - "Akane no Komoriuta" (Akane's Lullaby)

8. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Gloria Gaynor - "I Will Survive"

9. WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Yasunori Mitsuda - "The Trial" (Soundtrack to "Chrono Trigger")

10. WHAT IS 2+2?
REM - "Sweetness Follows"

11. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Bob Marley - "Jamming"

12. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
SheDaisy - "In Terms of Love"

13. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Aerosmith - "F.I.N.E."

14. WHAT DO YOU WANT TO DO WHEN YOU GROW UP?
James Blunt - "So Long Jimmy"

15. WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Yanni - "Chasing Shadows"


16. WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
James Taylor - "Country Road"

17. WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Ray Stevens - "Freddie Feelgood and His Five-Piece Band"

18. WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
John Denver - "Thank God I'm a Country Boy"

19. WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Veggie Tales - "More Vegetables Talking"

20. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Whose Line Is It Anyway? - "German Millionaire Show"
("Vat is 2 plas 2? -- a: 7 b: SHUT UP PIG c: I would like to invade Poland. d: FOURRR!")

21. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Rocky Horror Picture Show Soundtrack - "Time Warp"

22. WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
West Side Story Soundtrack - "America"

23. HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Yasunori Mitsuda - "Robo Gang Johnny"

24. DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Travelling Wilburys - "Rattled"

25. IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Toshio Sakurai - "Cosmic Cowgirl"

26. WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Mystery Science Theater 3000 Soundtrack - "Where Is My Werewolf?"

27. WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Journey - "Don't Stop Believin'"

Scripture study

I have started a scripture study class with a few sister in our ward at my house one showed up today with her husband it was very spiritual for us we really got a chance to read and help each other understand what we were reading . We are starting on the Book of Mormon and we read 1-4 chapters of Nephi. I learned so much in those first few chapters . I used to pick then up glance over them and say okay i am done today but today I really concentrated on what they had to say my eyes were fully open to the words today.
For those who want to come it is every Wednesday from 10am -11 am . Just bring your scriptures and we take turns providing snacks . Child care is provided in my living room I put on a Tv show for Nicholas and he was content watching it

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Congrats Noah

He had a karate test yesterday and passed he is now a yellow belt . It is helping him so much to learn self discipline I am so proud of him
Now the next stage we have to work with and him is lying

Monday, November 10, 2008

SNOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It was snowing this morning when we got up to get ready for the day. I had to pry kids away from the window to get them moving for the day . They had half an hour to get ready for school good thing I let them eat at school I was cute seeing them in their heavy winter coats and hats mitten scarfs. They wanted to wear their boots from last year but they are to small . I am getting them new ones this week I told them Thursday after school. Rainey goes but that day is Thanksgiving. I said no its not. She goes but Thanksgiving is on a Thursday. I said 2 Thursday from now . I love the first snow fall of the year everything looks white a clean. Then it turns to mush. I still have flowers that bloomed last week due to the nice sunny days we had.
I have winter roses . I can't wait to see those bloom

Sunday, November 9, 2008

Preparing

today in Relief Society we learned about the Second coming of Christ . I was pondering what can I do to fully prepare myself. I got thinking more it is impossible to fully prepare. We don't know the exact date and time. We have to take it one day at a time . We must strive our best to do what is right . By doing this we should not fear when the times comes when he rules among the sons of men.

Friday, November 7, 2008

fun quiz


I'm a Esme! I found out through TwilightersAnonymous.com. Which Twilight Female Are You? Take the quiz and find out!
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It doesn't surprise me she was family oriented and so am I . I want to see the movie real bad but I will have to wait no money to see it

Thursday, November 6, 2008

Scott

is such a great husband and father . Since I have been sick he has stepped up and has been playing mother and father he has done his own laundry helped cook diner clean up the house bath the kids
I am glad i have him

potty training

nicholas has been fun we were almost done in august but for some reason he started to backslide and got scared of using it so i am starting all over again and so far only 1 accident he is wearing big boy undies i don't do the pull up thing i don't mind doing wash. I even made a chart for him and every time he goes he gets to chose the sticker to put on the day of the week
so here is hoping by thanksgiving he will be trained all the way

celebritiy mom ( i am Kelly Ripa)

You're a force to be reckoned with, an oversold one-woman show performing round-the-clock appearances for foot-stomping crowds everywhere. Tirelessly good-humored, you manage to make it all look not only easy, but also fun. With more side jobs than you have kids, you also manage a long-term, rock-solid marriage and a high profile business partnership. Your secret is always remembering to laugh -- inspiring us, even at our most exasperated, to throw back our heads and join you.


Some of this is true. Maybe I should be more relaxed and be a Rocker mom
thanks hillary for the quiz

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

I voted

I had a hard time with politics this year I was divided between family members my Husband stood on one side my Father on the other . I asked my dad how he would vote in my situation he said vote for the person you believe will really make a change I hope I made the right vote I hope and pray we all did. Now I really see how this process affects us all. I had friends say they wouldn't visit me because Scott put political stickers on the car I saw my father and Scott fight over petty political stuff . I am just glad this process is over and we have 4 years to live with the decision we made. I think we all need to step up and make these changes happen . I have seen Scott write letters to our Reps when a certain bill was going to be passed and got a response back. I didn't know that the reps use the letters from everyday Joes to make the case in why it shouldn't or should be passed. I have helped on making the Insurance companies pay when it comes to cancer treatment just by telling them my experiance with my company . So we as a whole have to help our president make a change in our country no more sitting on the back burner and leaving it to our reps to do we need to do our part.
Yes God really bless america we are going to need it .

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Noah's Progress

Since he got the new teacher he is doing good . Coming home with ok days and good days . We have put him in karate and we notice a difference in his attitude he is learning how to respect himself teachers and parents . The next hurdle we have is homework it is like pulling teeth he has a week to do it and he fusses and cries even when we give him choices in a reward if he gets it done .

Monday, November 3, 2008

Fun vacation

I left Thursday after kids got out of school and went to visit grandma's and grandpa's it was fun.
Kids went trick of treating at Grandma Jamison's work they got alot of goodies. Books toys candy crackers pretzel popcorn. The Aunt Jill took them out for an hour they have enough to last a year if they had 1 piece a day. Spent Friday in Greektown with mom in law she took the day off also with Jill and Rainey. Lunch was good rode the people mover. Saturday tried to spend it with my mom but all she did was complain how dad won't let her drive to the north end of Port Huron Don't blame him traffic is bad on Saturday plus she puts 150 dollars of gas in her suv every 2 weeks so we couldn't go to the movies then she offered to take me to lunch then she goes in the kitchen and makes me lunch . I went over yesterday to get some yarn to crochet a couple blankets i asked her to help me learn how to go granny squares she got frustrated that i wasn't picking up the first time and then took over and did it so fast I couldn't see what she was doing .I learn by doing not by watching . Then my sister got madI was there because mom was helping her get a quilt started . my sister lives in town and can see my mom when ever she wants I see her maybe once every coule months If I am lucky . My mom always favored her she could do what she wanted and not get in trouble . I wanted to go to the movies with a group of friends when I was 14 and parents were going to be there my mom said no and a couple years later she lets my sister go with a boy no adult supervision . Sister was 13
Even when I had cancer she never paid attention to me it was all on my sister who had a baby at the same time i was dianosed sister was 16 . All i wanted her to do was be there for me . But she is distant from me and it is getting worse even my daughter dosn't like her she never does anything with her like her other grandma even taking her to the park that is 2 blocks away is to much for my mom all in al it was a good weekend