I am a cancer survivor
I have 1 eternal companion
1 daughter
3 sons.
my fair share of challenges
I am human

Wednesday, December 30, 2009


It has been a long week or 2 for me. I am making progress and getting ready to have this baby. I spent Christmas eve in the hospital thinking this is it. 2 ivs later and 7 hours there I only went from 2 and a half to3 cm. I keep telling them I get stuck at this point I need help to progress my labor. They said for legal reasons they couldn't because I was only 35 weeks and 3 days . I asked If I could get something to stop the contractions they said no. They want me to go into labor Naturally . Well I don't all 3 of my kids needed help I get stuck at 3 and make no progress.
Now I am on zofran due to me doing nothing but throw up everytime I ate something . that stuff is nasty. I was told to drink 8-10 glasses of water a day. boy am I swollen due to the point of walking is painful.. I can't get my socks or shoes on. It is winter time snow on ground what am I to do. I wear slippers and force my feet into shoes when I have to get the kids from School here is hoping this baby will come soon. I wan tto be able to walk again painfree eat with out having to take meds.
Most of all I want to see his little face and see how beautiful he is. What my husband and I created out of our love for each other.

Thursday, December 10, 2009

My kids have grown so much

My Daughter will be 8 in February. Where does time go. Seems like yesterday I was holding for the first time. It was 24 hours after her birth I got to hold her. We almost lost her . I am grateful we didn't. She tries to be a little mother. But she is willing to help when I need it most of the time.

My middle son will be 7 in January. I remember the OB on call and my husband saying hurry up and have this kid before the Super bowl starts. I did 32 minutes before the first kick off. He has brought joy and sorrow in our life. He has some problems in school and I think he has a learning disability he can hear how to do something then 5 minutes go by and he can't comprehend what was said to him. He always has a smile on his face even when he is in trouble. He does surprise us.

My baby was born Dec.26 2005 . He was due the middle of January . I fell down a flight of stairs and broke my ankle and went in to labor with him. I didn't know I was in Labor until I went to sing with the choir and hit my high note. I spent Christmas Afternoon in the hospital I am still grateful for my Visiting teacher and her family who put aside their Celebration that day to take the other 2. He is the joy of our family I always thought he would be the last one.

Well I am sitting here in anticipation of another little boy. He has tried to come once but since bed rest he is staying put. I can't wait to hold him in my arms for the first time. He is 2 years worth of heartfelt prayers and many months of sorrow. He holds a special place in my heart. As all my kids do.

Friday, December 4, 2009

How to find the Christmas spirit in a hectic life

Put up your Nativity where you can see it and show the kids and watch their reaction. My little 3 year old loves to admire baby Jesus and hold it. My 6 year old loves to rearrange it to tell the story in his own words if he was there this is what he would do. My 7 year old gets tears in her eyes when she thinks of the Christmas story. Me I love to play the hymns and sing them that go along with his birth. This year I hope to be able to sing with the choir. I am hoping Alexander can wait until after the Christmas service to be born.