I am a cancer survivor
I have 1 eternal companion
1 daughter
3 sons.
my fair share of challenges
I am human

Sunday, September 28, 2008


After church I stayed because Scott is Finance clerk . Well Ashley Granness asked me to come here and look in the water pitcher she was getting ready to put water in it for nursey well i did and was DISGUSTED there were MOUSE dropping in it and well I said shut the door I went and got scott We tried to catch it no luck it ran into the chapel .We started cleaning out the nursery closet and well there were droppings on the toys papers in bins they out runs another mouse tried to get number 2 ran into the chapel . Started cleaning more and well she said get the bucket i did we got number 3 and throw him outside . Alot of food had to be throwen out and other fun stuff even the felt board. The bummer part was the Big box of goldfish crakers they chewed through the bags
3 shelves were covered in droppings and the shelves have been chewed up. It was fun watching Bishop booth and Thurber look at each other saying I thought you were taking care of the mouse . I guess they knew about but 3 yikes . What a fun day

Saturday, September 27, 2008

when organizing gets the better of me

I spent the better part of 3 hours yesterday cleaning and organizing my kitchen. I moved the fridge swept under it and moped where it was sitting boy was it nasty then i decided to move the fridge to a different location well i did that 3 times before i was satisfied where it was . Then i did the same thing with my china Hutch which holds my spices and other cooking ingredients instead of china . Then i cleaned out cupboard and a drawer re organized where my dishes went. all in the process of this I pulled a muscle in my back so just typing this is painful and I sliced up my finger when mopping around the back of the fridge my finger got stuck under it and when i pulled it out it got stuck under a metal part. But i am very satisfied in how open it looks know it makes my small kitchen look better.
If Tia and Jen read this Laurie Geeter had her gastric bypass surgery Tuesday
Plus Noah has been behaving better in school

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

children's laughter

is a cure for a bad day it is just nicholas and me during the day so we have fun chasing each other all over the house and getting in tickle wars it is fun . i like hearing his cute laugh it makes me smile to know he is happy and he goes mommy i want a baby sister all 3 of them keep talking about a baby sister but for know i got to go tickle my baby before i blink and he is away on his mission

Sunday, September 21, 2008

DIsappointments in life

we all have them but it feels like mine are happening every day . Some of you know Scott and I have been trying for the last year to have another one but it is not happening. Maybe it is a good thing due to finances or the way certain family members would react . this one family member once told us one is to many. this member also said not using birth control is like playing russian roulette with your life .
My mom and dad especially my dad knows my family is not complete yet and i know that .

another disappointment lately is scott and his job. he is unhappy in it so he is not happy at home . he comes home plays computer until 1 or 2 in the morning gets up at 6 to get ready for work and leaves at 630 to catch the bus comes home at 630 pm . This is causing stress in our marriage . I used to be so happy to be with him but i think after the 2 year when he got laid off he got into this depression he can't get out of and it is tearing us apart he promises he will stop this computer habit but it keeps going on
I am hoping he gets this job with homeland security he got a notice in the mail to stay fit until they call him to do training since he passes the written part of the test the physical part the drug part the background part all he needs to do is pass a video part.
if he enters the training he will be gone for 4 months . he is worried about leaving me behind but he dosen't have to be i have friends who will take care of me .

Like hilary i needed to vent but i wanted people to know what is going on with me to see if they can help me deal with these negative feelings i am having

Saturday, September 20, 2008


Rainey playing ode to joy mom playing O my father
rainey do as i'm doing

Friday, September 19, 2008

tomorrow is my Recital

I am so nervous . I am playing my favorite hymn Oh My Father . It has always been since I could understand the words. I was so glad when I found a great teacher who knows I am a slow learner and is quick to get upset when I don't grasp it the first time we have been working on trying to get me to memorize the piece but i got a couple measures down but that is is so i get to us my book . Rainey has been taking lessons also she is playing Ode to joy first 8 measures then Jesus wants me for a sun beam .
Hope all goes well .

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

We are working

with noah and his teacher at this point . We sat down yesterday and talked to him and told he we want you to have a yellow day which is an ok day or a green day which is a good day i don't want to see any more red or blue days which are bad and really bad days. The teacher and the principal and scott and I talked yesterday. For now he is at his own table by him self when he found this out he cried we told him there is no lunch recess for the rest of the week and no music and art either until he gets a yellow or green . I know it sounds harsh but he needs to learn he can't behave or keep his hands to himself there will be conquences . We are also having see a school counsoler the principal thinks he might have ADHAD (ATTENTION DEFICIET Hyper Activity Disorder) scott doesn't like this but i told her 3 out of my 5 nephews have it even a couple of my cousins have it. I was also given a lis tof books to read by Courtney to see if that help.
I really appperciate the support you have been given me the last few days .
I walked the kids 1.5 miles to school today to see if wearing of excess energy helps i hope that does
I even laid down a few rules today that we expect yellow or green today and had him repeat it 3 times to day
i go pick him up in an hour lets see how it goes

Tuesday, September 16, 2008


has been sent home not even an hour into school he decided to play barber shop with a little girls hair today i was helping Michelle with house work while she took a shower and relaxed so they had to call Scott and they got mad because he had to come after 11 to get him they said we really need an emergency number were you can get them with in 5 minutes
what am i to do basically this teacher labled him a problem child the first day he got out of line and wont work with us or with him she said he isn't ready for school he should be in kindergarten next year my son is almost 6 i hope the principal will listen to use in switching teachers if not well we will pull both our kids out of school and find one were they will work with noah and challenge rainey

my dad said find a free chater school were they help out and work with the stdents it shaped up my brother and made him smarter

Monday, September 15, 2008

kids and school

Noah is one short day of getting suspended he has no respect for the teacher and he is getting his friend in trouble also by his mis behavior . He is playing in the sink in the classroom throwing water everywhere spitting everywhere and blowing in kids faces he is cutting up everything but what he is told to do he is even peeing on the bathroom floor in his classroom . throwing his pencil in anger not doing his work

Lorraine is doing fine it is the teacher we don't care fore. Rainey is a smart girl who is getting bored awfully fast the teacher gives them worksheets count how many in the row and color that many
plus you are graded on coloring she is in first grade she gets marked down if she is out of the lines or if there is a little white spot left or if she doesn't color in the same direction . i am 28 and i still have a hard time coloring in the lines or not leaving white spaces since when do they grade coloring
give me a first grader that has perfect coloring
I don't know what to do i am at my wits end

Sunday, September 14, 2008

Nicholas is to funny

he was walking around in my heeled shoes yesterday and Scott asked him to take them off
he said I can't daddy they are my High school Musical shoes. He has never see that movie I guess he got it from the commercials

Saturday, September 13, 2008

I need help

I have noticed how some of your blogs have the cutest backgrounds from the website i see in the upper left corner i went there and tried to follow the directions on how to do them for some reason i can't figure it out can you help me with this how did you do it i want to customize my blog to reflect my family

cool song

I heard this cool song on the radio it is called Stop and stare by one republic.
i really like it it makes you think about life how you should stop and look around you you never know when it will be your last time to stop and stare check out the music video on you tube it takes a minute into the video to hear the song start.

Thursday, September 11, 2008

my little helper

I asked Nicholas to take a blanket downstairs to the washer to be washed. He was down there a while he came up and said there is a mess downstairs well there was all over the basement floor he tried to put in the detergent also he dumped half the bottle all over so i moped it up with towels and now i have real clean fluffy ones. lucky me

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

tagged again

I am: answering these questions
I know: that my testimony has helped me through the bad times
I want: another baby
I dislike: people who get everything they want without lifting a finger
I miss: my family and friends who are to far to visit in a car
I fear:spiders
I hope: noah learns how to behave better in school
I feel:sick because i am
I hear: Kal-lin a cartoon that teaches kids how to speak Chinese
I smell: nothing right now i have a bad cold
I crave:attention from my husband
I cry: when i am upset
I usually: read a good book
I search: for everyday things that will make me happy
I wonder: why we are sents kids that a totally different from one another
I regret: not going to college when i had the chance
I love: to cook good meals for my family
I care: everybody i love
I always: am glad i woke up to face another day no matter the challenges
I worry: about my children and the world they need to grow up in
I am not: very good at math
I remember: being a little girl
I believe:in everyday miricales
I dance with nicholas
I sing: my baby to sleep
I argue: as little as possible
I write:blogs and my book i am working on
I win: not every game i play it is rare that i do
I wish: to find the cure for cancer so the future generation doesn't have to go through it
I listen:to my child's problems
I don't understand:why i am a mom sometimes i am not good at it
I can usually be found: in my quite spot
I am scared: that the cancer will come back
I need: to fell loved
I forget:what day it is unless the kids are in school
I am: a very helpful person always looking for a chance to serve

I tag...
all my friends who have blogs

grandma sent me this it makes you think

After living what I felt was a 'decent' life, my
> > time on earth
> came to
> > the end.
> >
> >
> >
> >
> > The first thing I remember is sitting on a bench in the
> > waiting
> > room of what I thought to be a court house. > >
> > The doors opened and I was instructed to come in and have
> > a seat by the
> > defense table.
> >
> > As I looked around I saw the 'prosecutor.'
> >
> > He was a villainous looking gent who snarled as he stared
> > at me.
> >
> > He definitely was the most evil person I have ever seen.
> >
> > I sat down and looked to my left and there sat My
> > Attorney,
> > a kind and gentle looking man whose appearance seemed so
> > familiar to
> > me, I felt I knew Him.
> >
> > The corner door flew open and there appeared
> the Judge in
> > full
> > flowing robes.
> > He commanded an awesome presence as He moved across the
> > room I couldn't
> > take my eyes off of Him.
> >
> > As He took His seat behind the bench, He said, 'Let
> > us begin.'
> >
> > The prosecutor rose and said,
> > 'My name is Satan and I am here to show you why this
> > woman
> > belongs in hell.'
> >
> > He proceeded to tell of lies that I told, things that I
> > stole, and In the
> > past when I cheated others Satan told of other horrible
> > Perversions that were once in my life and the more he
> > spoke, the
> > further down in my seat I sank.
> >
> > I was so embarrassed that I couldn't look at anyone,
> > even my own Attorney,
> > as the Devil told of sins that even I had completely
> > forgotten about.
> >
> > As upset as I was at Satan for
> telling all these things
> > about me, I was
> > equally upset at My Attorney who sat there silently not
> > Offering any form of
> > > defense at all.
> >
> >
> >
> > I know I had been guilty of those things, but I had done
> > some good in my
> > life - couldn't that at least equal out part of the
> > harm I'd done?
> >
> > Satan finished with a fury and said, 'This woman
> > belongs in hell,
> > she is guilty of all that I have charged and there is not
> > a person
> > who can prove otherwise.'
> >
> > When it was His turn, My Attorney first asked if He might
> > approach the
> > bench.
> >
> > The Judge allowed this over the strong objection of
> > Satan,
> > and beckoned Him to come forward.
> >
> > As He got up and started walking, I was able to see Him
> > in
> > His full splendor and majesty.
> >
> > I realized why He see med so familiar; this was Jesus
> > representing me,
> > my Lord and my Savior.
> >
> > He stopped at the bench and softly said to the Judge,
> > 'Hi,
> > Dad,' and then He turned to address the court.
> >
> > 'Satan was correct in saying that this woman had
> > sinned, I won't deny any
> > of these allegations.
> >
> > And, yes, the wage of sin is death, and this woman
> > deserves to be
> > punished.
> >
> > Jesus took a deep breath and turned to His Father with
> > outstretched arms and proclaimed, 'However, I died on
> > the cross so
> > that this person might have eternal life and she has
> > accepted Me as her
> > Savior, so she is Mine.'
> >
> > My Lord continued with, 'Her name is written in the
> > Book of Life,and no one
&g t; > can snatch her from Me.
> >
> >
> Satan still does not understand yet. This woman is not to
> > be given justice,
> > but rather mercy.'
> >
> > As Jesus sat
> down,
> > He quietly paused, looked at His Father and
> > said,'There is nothing else that
> > needs to be done.'
> >
> > 'I've done it all.'
> >
> > The Judge lifted His mighty hand and slammed the gavel
> > down.
> > The following words bellowed from His lips..
> >
> > 'This woman is free.'
> >
> > 'The penalty for her has already been paid in
> > full.'
> >
> > 'Case dismissed.'
> >
> > As my Lord led me away, I could hear Satan ranting and
> > raving,
> > 'I won't give up, I will win the next one.' I
> > asked Jesus as He gave
> ; > me my instructions where to go next, 'Have you ever
> > lost a case?'
> >
> > Christ lovingly smiled and said,
> >
> > 'Everyone that has
> come to Me and asked Me to
> > represent them has received
> > the same verdict as you,
> >
> > ~Paid In Full~
> > If you do not
> pass this along to 15 people immediately,
> > absolutely nothing will happen.
> >
> > Passing this on to anyone you consider a friend,
> > (as I have done here), will bless you both.
> >
> > 'Stop telling God how big your storm is.
> > Instead, tell the storm how big your God is!'
> >

Monday, September 8, 2008

dancing the night way

Wedding Fun

my daughter was asked to be the flower girl in Scott's cousin's wedding.Scott was an usher She was the life of the party she was always on the dance floor and having fun despite a bad morning she woke up with a bad cold . She danced with the dj he taught her the hussle we caught her at the bar talking to the bar tender she danced with grandpa and daddy . It was a fun wedding. It was done in a luthran church and the stained glass windows were just beautiful . My favorite 2 were christ in the garden of geshtme and with him surronded by children . The reception at the club house of the local golf corse in Port Huron.

I have been tagged

The 5
10 years ago I:
1. I graduated from Port Huron High School ( number 72 out of 325)
2. Learned how to drive
3. still working at kmart
4. took a plane ride all by myself
5.got in my first car accident

5 things on today's "to do" list:
1. get kids off to school
2. Play games with nicholas
3. Take a nap
4.return library book

5.post pictures to my blog
5 snacks I enjoy:
1. fresh fruit
2. milk
3. sometimes chocolate
4. grandmas homemade brownies
5. home made bread by me
5 things I would do if I were a millionaire:
1. back pack through Europe
2. Donate to cancer research
3. Buy my friend a house
4.get myself a cool car
5.buy my family a better van
5 places I have lived:
1. Utah for 7 years
2.Port Huron Mi for 14 years
3. Grand Rapids Mi
4. Marshall Mi
5. And In my current home

5 jobs I have had:
1. Babysitter
2.Kmart cashier
3. Flower shop
4. Bank one ( gave up assistant manager position to start family )
5. now I am a mom

I tag...Whomever was inspired by this and
1. Jen b
2. Stacy W.
3. Hilary T.
5. Michelle

Rules:Each player answers the question themselves. At the end of the post the player then tags 5 people and posts their names, then goes to their blog and leaves them a comment letting them know that they've been tagged and asking them to read your blog. Let the person that tagged you know when you've answered the questions on your blog.

Thursday, September 4, 2008

First full day

Went well with Nicholas and me . He didn't cry at all when I dropped of Lorraine and Noah.
I caught him singing along with Dora the explorer and he was playing with his bob the builder play set singing the theme song .
Lorraine said she had a fun day
Noah got in trouble with the teacher . He said I didn't have a good day the boys and girls were to loud at rest time and I couldn't sleep
All in al it was a good day I was able to get house work done too and i didn't take all day

Tuesday, September 2, 2008


picture 1 Rainey before going into first grade
2 noah in his class room
3 noah before school

They have great teachers this year
Tomorrow I will be bored with Nicholas Any ideas how to make it a fun filled days with him

trip to the zoo

went yesterday to the zoo with the inlaws it was ok
nicholas kept on wandering off left the monkey house with a different family he was brought back by the mom . We heard the tiger roar many times saw a snake open his mouth like it was yawning
road the train . the best part of the day was in the morning before we left
I was getting nicholas ready he goes mom my legs hurt i asked why he said because they have a tiger in them and he made roaring noises . so we saw ashley grannes at the zoo she does face painting and air brushing he did the kids for free and now nicholas has a tiger on his leg rainey a girraffe and noah a snake .