I am a cancer survivor
I have 1 eternal companion
1 daughter
3 sons.
my fair share of challenges
I am human

Wednesday, December 7, 2011


We are still doing well. Kids are doing well is school . Noah has more good days than bad days. he is in therapy. Lorraine is doing real well she is upset she is the 2nd smartest kid in the 4th grade. She is active on the safety patrol and various clubs at school. She had a solo in the church primary program and just did a solo at the school Christmas pageant. She has amazing talent in the arts.
Nicholas is growing up so much . he is loving kindergarten .
Alex well he is almost 2 and a handful.he is talking in sentences and mimicking what we say. he loves to be read to and when music is on he loves to dance to it.
we added a new member to our family last weekend. her name is Hazel nut. She is our beloved Guinea pig. . We adopted her from the local pet store. she is a joy to have and the kids love taking care of her. Alex calls her his kitty .
As for me I have had a few health issues . but i am getting treated for them.

Saturday, September 10, 2011

rest of summer

daddy do they have to come home

kids first day of school

I had emergency surgery that was not fun . I had my appendix removed and a big golf ball size cyst drained on my ovary. tha twas not fun. Healing time was awful . I had to stay upstairs in my room had to have help to and from the bathroom , showers i had to sit on a chair and have someone else wash me. Hardest part was I couldn't hold my little Alex. He is to young to understand why. I had ladies from church bring food clean house watch me and the kids. At my 2 week follow up I healed nicely but my cysts are forming again and well i have to talk to the Dr to get my ovaries removed. I am only 31 but i don't want to jeopardize my health at this rate they can go cancerous anytime and I don't want a repeat of that.

School is in Session Nicholas loves kindergarten . Rainey is loving 4th grade . Noah is suspended for bringing a knife to school. he thought it would be fun to shows his friends. But other than that it is quite during the day .

Thursday, August 4, 2011

long crazy summer

2 kids were in summer school until the 21st of July. Noah to get his reading and math up. Lorraine because she wanted to learn French. . Then we went camping in the U.P. of Michigan . It is beautiful country up there. I live only2 and half hours from the Michigan border. you cross a bridge over the river and half way across it says welcome to Michigan. Scott and I took a river boat cruise of the Pictured Rocks along the Lake Superior shore line. the rocks are the results of the ice age melting and the constant waves hitting them. you can see pirate ships and Indian heads and various other things. Noah was also baptized on the 10 of July . It was a long awaited event. His Birthday is in January . few days after his birthday he injured his foot then was on crutches until the middle of March. I got pregnant morning sickness 24/7 . then we lost the baby in May. So after a short grieving period we decided he was ready to do this and he was he was so excited. now we are back waiting for school to start September 1

Saturday, June 18, 2011

11 long years but i made it this far

11 years it has been since i stared at deaths door. I was diagnosed with cancer . It was along road to recovery both Emotionally and physically. I still have my days when I think about it . There still are outward signs I had it. I am so glad I survived this . I was given a wonderful husband who has been by my side for 14 years married 10 of them. wonderful children and many good friends along the way . I don't think i could of made it this far without all the love and support I have gotten.

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Serenity jamison

I totally lost you today may 25 . I chose to name you Serenity because despite losing you 6 months before we were to met you I feel calm and at peace with this. I new something was wrong in the beginning someone was telling me. It hurt at first and will for awhile but it is to happen to some of us. this will only make me stronger and appreciate what i have more each day . I don't have you and never will but i have 4 other healthy children who need me. and a husband who loves me very much.
So goodbye sweet angel of ours.

Monday, May 23, 2011

goodbye sweet angel

today we found out we lost our baby.

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

A fun time with Grandparents

my in laws came to Wisconsin to spend Easter with the kids. They came on Thursday and went with me to get them from school talk about suprised. Then on friday we went to the local train museum it was fun then went to dinner with them. Saturday we went bowling I let Alex help me he got a spare. then took it easy rest of the day. Went to the park with the kids. Sunday was Easter . Alex found an egg throw it on the floor . Found his basket and tore it apart. . Then we had a nice dinner went swimming at the hotel water was cold. then came the hard part the goodbyes. it is so hard to see them go because we don't see each other like we did when we lived in Michigan. We will see them again in July for a week of camping.

Saturday, April 9, 2011

My Family will be growing again

that is right i saw two pink lines staring at me and that could only mean 1 thing I am pregnant . we are guessing around Mid December . We are real happy about it. My daughter is real happy she hopes it is a girl so do I. Nicholas wants another Brother Noah is Un decided at this time Alex doesn't really know what is going on.

Monday, March 14, 2011

adventure of Noah

This is what happens when you get a
toothpick stuck in your foot and it gets infected. he is doing better stitches will be removed tomorrow after 8 weeks on crutches he can't wait to be able to walk normally.

my kids


so much has happened.

In January my Alex turned 1 he is growing up so much he is talking in short sentences always has a smile on his face and loves to make us laugh.
Noah turned 8 and tore ligaments in his ankle.
February Lorraine turned 9 and Scott got another year older.
Noah's foot wasn't healing so we went and saw a foot Dr. They did an MRI and well not good news. He needed a surgery to remove the foreign object that was stuck in between the ankle and joint. So we had to drive 2 hours to the Children's hospital. The Dr said it looks septic and the only person who could intervene quickly was at the Children's hospital. So off we went. had surgery the next morning at 7.30 am. They removed a toothpick that was causing an infection. So 2 day stay in the hospital because of the infection they home . He has a nice looking scar and we are framing the tooth pick.
Nicholas was registered for Kindergarten and is growing up so much.
As for me I am adjusting to Wisconsin . I have made many new friends but still miss the old. I belong to choir , a stamping club and a running club. I am getting back in shape. I also am looking at going back to school . We will see I have other plans until August and if that plan falls through off to college i go .
I am also focusing on me the next few months doing things that make me happy. I have to put me first for a while. I am so used to putting my kids and husbands needs before mine i have fallen into a sad funk. I need to get out of.