I am a cancer survivor
I have 1 eternal companion
1 daughter
3 sons.
my fair share of challenges
I am human

Saturday, January 30, 2010

my world is slowly crashing around me

last night or should I say at 2this morning as I was trying to calm a real fussy baby I realized this. I am having a hard time adjusting to this new world I have a family of 6. Everyone wants my attention and I am spreading myself thin . My daughter is nothing but attitude when I ask her for help she is like why can't you do it I didn't make the mess. My 1st son I s to active for his own good and doesn't like to listen he finds himself in the corner daily and hates it but hasn't figured out how to stay out of the corner. My second son is in his terrible twos and he is 4 he still won't fully potty train i am hating it. I even went out and bought him his favorite toy put it on the bathroom shelf where he can see it as an incentive to earn it by pooping in the potty not his pants.
Alexander is not doing good at sleeping at night he wants to be awake at night . I try waking him up during the day but he wants to sleep.
My husband I don't know what is going on with him. He has been real distant since Before I had him. I got to bed myself he is to busy for me. he rather talk to his online friends or play his games. what about me. I am stuck inside all day with 4 kids and really no outlet. I am stressed out and tired.
I didn't know mother hood and being a wife were going to be like this. or at least my family.

2 comments:

Jen B. said...

LIfe can get tough when you have a new little one -- everyone testing the waters just to see if they can get away with something. Stand your ground but also take time out to spend with your other 3 little ones -- they are probably missing mom's attention. Good luck :-)

That Girl said...

Ohhhhh, I'm not looking forward to this! There's always a certain amount of disillusionment - "I didn't know it was going to be like this"-ness. It happens every time we add a human being to our family. Or move. Or grow up.

It's LIFE.

Just remember the good times - because I know they're there - it makes it all worth it.