It's offical

bed rest until I deliver my Baby. I still have contractions but not enough to do anything.Plus he is dropping . Trying to get my kids to help is a pain in the butt. I a trying to teach them responsibility and Noah gets the dumbest look on his face like what did you tell me to do and why. oh well so my house is a mess dishes haven/t been washed . Laundry is almost done thanks to my daughter .
What I have learned from this is I need to slow down and smell the roses life is to short to pass me by.

Bed rest sucks

urgh here are the details. Sunday after church I started to have contractions I am only 31 weeks
they were coming every 10 minutes and they were painful they continued throughout the night I maybe got 2 hours of sleep if I was lucky . I got up to get the kids ready for school at this point they were coming every 5 minute sand they were very painful. So called the Dr. She said go to labor and delivery. So I called Scott yes he went to work knowing this was going on. SO I called my friend she drove me and watched Nicholas. Got hooked up and monitored for 3 hours . They were registering on the monitor did a few tests. Turns out they were just very strong braxton hicks . But to be on the safe side I am on bed rest. The only things I can do is get my kids to and from school , use the bathroom. I have to rest as much as possible now.
I a so glad for the help I am getting from the ladies at church. THey are making my family dinner and watching Nicholas for me so I can rest and not have to worry about him.
Tv is getting boring.

Hey, wait a second.... she told me she was pregnant, but I found THIS EVIDENCE!!
Click picture for full evidential details!!

stretch marks galore

me at 30 weeks

10 more weeks to go

That is all I have left. According to my Dr. If she lets me go term I am looking at an almost 12 lb baby. So we are going in around 37 weeks to have our little boy.
Feelings are I am scared this time around I don't know why. Maybe because I have 3 and they are hard to control as it is . How will life be after we introduce the new little one in our home.
I guess I take it one day at a time.

i guess

I have created my own problems. I realize I am not the only lonely person out there. I got a phone call the other day and we talked for almost 40 minutes it felt good to talk to another adult who shares the same beliefs you do. This pregnancy has been so hard on me . I am sick and sore all the time. I am trying to keep a house clean raise 3 other kids and my husband is in school and not home all the time.
I have offend the wrong person and I don't know where to draw the line I am at risk of losing a real close friend. I still don't understand what I did wrong but try to patch up a big mess I created last year.
I just might tell this other friend we are done. i don't need anymore stress right now. I have come close to losing this baby I worked so hard to have . I only have 13 weeks to go and I don't think I could survive if something happened to him.

Lonely

I realized about the only friend I have is a great lady named Kim.
I guess it is my fault. Another friend reminded me what I did last year to someone else. Ever since then nobody really talks to me or wants to do things with me. I totally forgot about that. I forgave myself and asked for forgiveness .
I understand if people don't trust me.
why can't people let it go and let me move on with my life.
I am sick of being lonely. I guess I will go back into my shell I worked so hard to get out of when I moved here.