I am a cancer survivor
I have 1 eternal companion
1 daughter
3 sons.
my fair share of challenges
I am human

Monday, January 11, 2010

1 more week

That is right since I am not progressing but contracting my Ob decided to induce me Next MONDAY
So If I don't have him by Sunday night I go in Monday at 10 am to get things started . I am hoping if I need to be induced it won't be like my last 2 times it happened. The labor was painful and slow. And I couldn't get any meds until I made it to 5 hopefully the meds work this time. I really don't want meds but I have to I have severe panic attacks and asthma attacks during labor.
So in 7 days Alexander will be here

Thursday, January 7, 2010

Almost Done

Soon He will be here it can be any day now. Everything is ready to go. all the furniture for him is put together. Dresser set up. All that is missing is him. I am to the point walking is almost impossible. But soon he will be in my arms ready to met me and the family. My daughter is so sad it is another brother she wishes she had a sister, Sometimes I wish that also for her so she can have a playmate. but she likes playing with Nicholas last night she read him a couple bed time stories she helps in alot of ways.

In the next 17 days yes 17 days will will meet this miracle that had taken over my body since May
but a miracle that was created out of love

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

WAITING AND WAITING

It has been a long week or 2 for me. I am making progress and getting ready to have this baby. I spent Christmas eve in the hospital thinking this is it. 2 ivs later and 7 hours there I only went from 2 and a half to3 cm. I keep telling them I get stuck at this point I need help to progress my labor. They said for legal reasons they couldn't because I was only 35 weeks and 3 days . I asked If I could get something to stop the contractions they said no. They want me to go into labor Naturally . Well I don't all 3 of my kids needed help I get stuck at 3 and make no progress.
Now I am on zofran due to me doing nothing but throw up everytime I ate something . that stuff is nasty. I was told to drink 8-10 glasses of water a day. boy am I swollen due to the point of walking is painful.. I can't get my socks or shoes on. It is winter time snow on ground what am I to do. I wear slippers and force my feet into shoes when I have to get the kids from School here is hoping this baby will come soon. I wan tto be able to walk again painfree eat with out having to take meds.
Most of all I want to see his little face and see how beautiful he is. What my husband and I created out of our love for each other.

Thursday, December 10, 2009

My kids have grown so much

My Daughter will be 8 in February. Where does time go. Seems like yesterday I was holding for the first time. It was 24 hours after her birth I got to hold her. We almost lost her . I am grateful we didn't. She tries to be a little mother. But she is willing to help when I need it most of the time.

My middle son will be 7 in January. I remember the OB on call and my husband saying hurry up and have this kid before the Super bowl starts. I did 32 minutes before the first kick off. He has brought joy and sorrow in our life. He has some problems in school and I think he has a learning disability he can hear how to do something then 5 minutes go by and he can't comprehend what was said to him. He always has a smile on his face even when he is in trouble. He does surprise us.

My baby was born Dec.26 2005 . He was due the middle of January . I fell down a flight of stairs and broke my ankle and went in to labor with him. I didn't know I was in Labor until I went to sing with the choir and hit my high note. I spent Christmas Afternoon in the hospital I am still grateful for my Visiting teacher and her family who put aside their Celebration that day to take the other 2. He is the joy of our family I always thought he would be the last one.

Well I am sitting here in anticipation of another little boy. He has tried to come once but since bed rest he is staying put. I can't wait to hold him in my arms for the first time. He is 2 years worth of heartfelt prayers and many months of sorrow. He holds a special place in my heart. As all my kids do.

Friday, December 4, 2009

How to find the Christmas spirit in a hectic life

Put up your Nativity where you can see it and show the kids and watch their reaction. My little 3 year old loves to admire baby Jesus and hold it. My 6 year old loves to rearrange it to tell the story in his own words if he was there this is what he would do. My 7 year old gets tears in her eyes when she thinks of the Christmas story. Me I love to play the hymns and sing them that go along with his birth. This year I hope to be able to sing with the choir. I am hoping Alexander can wait until after the Christmas service to be born.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

It's offical

bed rest until I deliver my Baby. I still have contractions but not enough to do anything.Plus he is dropping . Trying to get my kids to help is a pain in the butt. I a trying to teach them responsibility and Noah gets the dumbest look on his face like what did you tell me to do and why. oh well so my house is a mess dishes haven/t been washed . Laundry is almost done thanks to my daughter .
What I have learned from this is I need to slow down and smell the roses life is to short to pass me by.

Thursday, November 19, 2009

Bed rest sucks

urgh here are the details. Sunday after church I started to have contractions I am only 31 weeks
they were coming every 10 minutes and they were painful they continued throughout the night I maybe got 2 hours of sleep if I was lucky . I got up to get the kids ready for school at this point they were coming every 5 minute sand they were very painful. So called the Dr. She said go to labor and delivery. So I called Scott yes he went to work knowing this was going on. SO I called my friend she drove me and watched Nicholas. Got hooked up and monitored for 3 hours . They were registering on the monitor did a few tests. Turns out they were just very strong braxton hicks . But to be on the safe side I am on bed rest. The only things I can do is get my kids to and from school , use the bathroom. I have to rest as much as possible now.
I a so glad for the help I am getting from the ladies at church. THey are making my family dinner and watching Nicholas for me so I can rest and not have to worry about him.
Tv is getting boring.