Hey, wait a second.... she told me she was pregnant, but I found THIS EVIDENCE!!
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stretch marks galore

me at 30 weeks

10 more weeks to go

That is all I have left. According to my Dr. If she lets me go term I am looking at an almost 12 lb baby. So we are going in around 37 weeks to have our little boy.
Feelings are I am scared this time around I don't know why. Maybe because I have 3 and they are hard to control as it is . How will life be after we introduce the new little one in our home.
I guess I take it one day at a time.

i guess

I have created my own problems. I realize I am not the only lonely person out there. I got a phone call the other day and we talked for almost 40 minutes it felt good to talk to another adult who shares the same beliefs you do. This pregnancy has been so hard on me . I am sick and sore all the time. I am trying to keep a house clean raise 3 other kids and my husband is in school and not home all the time.
I have offend the wrong person and I don't know where to draw the line I am at risk of losing a real close friend. I still don't understand what I did wrong but try to patch up a big mess I created last year.
I just might tell this other friend we are done. i don't need anymore stress right now. I have come close to losing this baby I worked so hard to have . I only have 13 weeks to go and I don't think I could survive if something happened to him.

Lonely

I realized about the only friend I have is a great lady named Kim.
I guess it is my fault. Another friend reminded me what I did last year to someone else. Ever since then nobody really talks to me or wants to do things with me. I totally forgot about that. I forgave myself and asked for forgiveness .
I understand if people don't trust me.
why can't people let it go and let me move on with my life.
I am sick of being lonely. I guess I will go back into my shell I worked so hard to get out of when I moved here.

A scary day

I got a call from the school yesterday saying Noah fell asleep we can't wake him up. I go I can't wake him the principal can't wake him. So off to the ER I go. HE is better today
he was dehydrated to the point were his body was starting to shut down so after some fluids they sent him home and with stick orders plenty of fluids and he is to stay home today for observation.
At least he is better
Being a parent can get scary

Today reminds me of a chemo day

I have so much energy I don't know what to do with it. I cleaned kitchen organized cupboards , cleaned off counters mopped floor. Laundry wash dry fold put away . Bathroom , living roo dining room. I am still full of energy.
Last time this happened I was on heavy duty steroids before and after each chemo treatment. I cleaned my parents whole house made a gourmet meal for the family .
I guess we can call this nesting early. Saturday basement clean out.